CRUSH, INFATUATION, ATTRACTION, LOVE etc... I have always struggled to clearly comprehend or tell between these feelings. I have done full homework on it and have ready a full thesis on the same, but all useless. And the one thing which I have understood in the process (of writing a thesis) quite clearly is that trying to experience the feeling and then be able to identify it can create a total mess in one’s head coz one (at least me) can never really be sure which of the one feeling one is feeling.
And the dilemma is that today I am feeling something similar, I mean some feeling but again I am not able to tell which. How did I get to know that I am feeling the feeling? Let me ask you a few questions whose answers for me is YES..YES and YES..!!
1. Has it happened that you keep checking the status updates, the comments, the likes, the shares and above all the photos uploaded by a certain individual (definitely of the opposite sex ;) :P) and keep staring at them from the time you login till your system itself throws a message “Idiot!! She’s not gonna jump out of the system.. You moron!!!”
2. Has it ever happened that just by seeing someone you get a great feeling? I don’t know how to describe the feeling but it’s just that you feel everything’s great around you?
3. Has it happened that you stare at your computer screen continuously (obviously not when watching a movie.. :P) because you have a chat app opened up and the name of the person shows a green signal for you to go ahead and talk but you don’t rather cant?
4. Has it happened that when someone smiles/laughs (may be on you or your joke or your PJ) you feel like you can stop the moment then and there and keep looking the person till eternity?
5. Has it happened that you want the person to know that he/she means the world to you but can’t express it in words?
6. Has it happened that you pray daily for the person to send you a message or buzz you or just ping you a nighty night?
7. Has it happened that you hear some new/old music and then you dive into the thoughts of the person trying to relate the state/lyrics/feel of the song to yours and you come to believe that this song exactly represents your feeling, that it is a perfect fit for the state of affairs?
And these kinds of questions are never ending when you experience the feeling but you are never sure (again) to know which one is it. I mean, the toughest part is to decide whether it is just a crush or is it infatuation or attraction or is it really love? Is it really happening or you are just hallucinating? And with these series of FAQs you dive deep down to relate the definition to your current situation trying to figure out what is it that you feel.
But I seriously wonder if there is any way when we can be sure that it is not the one but the other? Different people have different theories and explanations for it. But I don’t want to care about it for now. As of me, I want to live this moment trying to enjoy the feeling rather than trying to make some sense out of it. I want to relish the wait for the ping, the buzz, the sweet nighty night till I fall asleep thinking about her waiting for the next day to come with a hope that someday some time she will feel the same about me and then I can finally tell her the feeling that I feel.
Till then, with HOPE. This is your friend always.
MV
:)
